Just a list of things that are on my mind and i need to get off my chest.

1. i loooooove my boyfriend.

2. i desperately need to get back into shape. I feel like a whale.

3. I feel like whenever i talk to people about my feelings, i am just talking to a wall, so why bother anymore? they dont give a fuck so neither do I.

4. Every one of my friends are going to bigger and better places and i’m just stuck sitting here in the same place, job, and school. with barely any income and just hanging by a thread.

5. idk if i want to go to be in college anymore….it’s a drag and i feel like i’m just wasting my time and money on something i don’t want to be pursuing anymore.

6. the Vow was a greaaaat movie

7. Honestly want to live somewhere else in vegas and start OVER.

8. Lastly, i do love life, but i just feel it to be a bit overwhelming at times but i try to keep a smile on my face with a positive outcome, and i feel like people still think i’m a negative person NOW just because of my past….I feel i have gotten better and looking at a positive outcome on things and it’s only weighing me down when people don’t recognize that…..

DONE.

I feel some sexual frustration in the air. & yes it’s definitely hitting me hard.

I just feel like if you have a boyfriend who has their own freaking house and you have been with each other for 3 years you should be having sex every freaking day, or at least pretty damn close to it. but NO. I don’t want to have sex because at my house there is a total of 7 people living here…and its a risk. But at his house it would be so much easier to do whatever we want to do….but yet we cant because hes TOO damn lazy to clean his fucking house! ughhhh. and its so cold in there its unbareable, and his dog, his room isnt clean and idk when was the last time i actually stepped inside of there…

i’m so frustrated right now. All i can think about is SEX. :(

and i aint gettin’ any….fuck.